Sunday, October 11, 2009

About my mission...

I have been searching, craving, and almost downright demanding something of God to help in our marriage.  Any married person knows marriage is hard.  We see people deliriously happy, unfathomably miserable and everything in between.  We have to work hard at whatever spot we are in regardless of which side of the spectrum we currently reside.  Being tired of hearing, "you can't change your spouse", being tired of thinking I was going to be the exception to that rule, being tired of giving my marriage to God and taking it back-I'm taking a stand.  With God, from God, through God.  A wonderful friend of mine helped to show me what God wanted me to do for my marriage.  After burning my tongue on a delicious Mocha Latte, listing everything in the past seven years my husband has done to irritate me, I listed what *I* needed to do.  Get *over* it!  When we ask the Lord for His forgiveness, we get it.  Done deal.  Why is it so hard for us to return the favor to our spouses the same Grace we receive daily from our Father?  I realized it isn't.  The project starts today. 

THE MISSION:  Regardless of our situation, I will treat him with the respect he needs and desires of me.

TIMELINE:  Forever.  This needs to be a lifestyle change.  In time, I'm praying, it will no longer be a mission and transform to a reflex.

THE GUIDELINES:  It's a secret.  I have requested my husband bless me with time from 5:30-6:00 a.m. to reflect on my "blogject".  If the kids are up between that time, they are his responsibility.  He knows I'm starting something, it ended there.  I know in my heart, he will see the changes I am making and God will provide him with the tools to, in turn, cherish me the way I need.

MY DESIRE:  To be deliriously happy with my husband.  To love God more than Him, and Him more than anyone or anything else.  Yes, I am aware the enemy will test me time after time.  Yes, I know everyday I will not be June Cleaver, and some days I will need to fall into God's grace to get me through to the next opportunity where I will either choose God's way or my way.  In time, I'm faithful a difference will be seen in our marriage.  Both to us, and others around us.

Pray for me.

1 comment:

  1. I am so very excited that you have such a teachable spirit and I know that God will most certainly bless this in a beautiful way! =) This is very exciting... =)

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