Genesis 3:12, "The man said, 'The woman you put here with me-she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it.'" (NIV) Yesterday, I learned I'm more like Adam than I ever cared to admit. All this time I assumed it was my husband not measuring up to my expectations, God showed me how I was not so blameless myself. No, nothing major occured in our lives; however, surely some arguments were saved because I kept my mouth shut. Chances are strong I will not always be so strong in spirit to do this. And if you know me, you know how much I like to, "poke the bear." I'm a work in progress.
I really truly believed I was more like Job leading a (virtually) blameless life than my husband. I was so wrong! God has shown me over these few short days into my mission, how many problems I was causing in our marriage and I didn't even know it. I would listen to the devil whisper in my ear telling me, "it's not YOUR fault", "you deserve more", "you settled for this?" and the whispering goes on. I acted upon each evil suggestion willingly and without a doubt I was right.
I'm reaping the benefits already. This is truly better than one of those get rich quick schemes. I know why. It's not a scheme. It's a mission directly from God Himself. Our Father is holding my hand through everything. He is filling my heart with scripture when my level is low and I want to go back to times before this mission. My husband is seeing to it I am being taken care of. He's begining to cherish me like I had always wanted and I'm not sure he is aware. I'm aware. I'm loving it. Every time my husband does something for me, I praise God, smile, whisper a thank you to the Holy Spirit in my heart. Working in me, changing me, helping me to grow closer to Him. I grow closer to both the "Hims" in my life; both the Father, and my husband. Complete win-win situation.
"With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26 (NIV)
I know I would never have made it to the morning of the third day of my mission had I left God behind. I would have fallen on day one so quickly, time after time. Unknowingly, I probably have fallen. I have been blessed enough to fall right into God's arms and He puts be back exactly where I was, urging me to move forward in my marriage. He designed it, why would he want me to fall and not get up?
One good thing my husband did today: Fed the children a decent late dinner and didn't complain.
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Okay, please tell me the time stamp on this post is off! LOL!! Hopefully, you weren't really up that early...but if you were, what a great way to spend your time. =)
ReplyDeleteThis post gave me a good chuckle, because I am 0h-so-familiar with the "blame game" that you described above. I get it from my hubby(as his dad was a chronic blamer), and I sure give it back as well! What a blessing that God has shown you this tendency in yourself. It's one that I feel we ALL carry; not only did Adam blame Eve, he blamed God as well. Nice try, dude.
Yes, you will fall. But that's okay...in the words of the Bible,
"For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief."
I also love this lyric from the untitled hymm by Chris Rice:
And like a newborn baby
Don't be afraid to crawl
And remember when you walk
Sometimes we fall...so
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus and live!
When you hear those whispers, just pull out Philippians 4:8...concentrate on the things that are true, and pure and lovely...Resist the devil, and he'll flee from you. =)
You're doing great!
I must say that you have very good posts. I don't even look at yours before doing mine but we seem to be kinda on the same page and struggling in the same sort of way. What a coincidink :o)
ReplyDeleteI wanted to thank you for actually letting God work through you to do this because it has inspired me to do this to better my marraige. It is a blessing when we (women) realize our faults and want to correct them. We hold such a power over a household it's not funny. I just pray that God can put my power to use through him to glorify every situation! God Bless you sister. I'm praying for you! Love ya
~Marie~