In General

I have nothing major to report it seems.  Excuses aside, here I sit lost with nothing to report.  I would love to say it's because things have been going exemplary in my blogject; however, I haven't seen my husband much over the past few days.  Can't fight when you don't see each other, right?  Well we know that part isn't true. 
I will work my hardest to recap our weekend, to free the cobwebs from my memory.  Saturday began quite well with us.  The morning was filled with fun, family time, overall happiness.  My husband even commented about how today was going to be a great day.  I agreed.  We even sat together trying to plan a vacation next year for our family.  A task I myself generally take on alone as he has no overall interest and I love to plan them.  A suggestion from our marriage prayer classes nudged my husband to sit beside me and aid in the process.  I enjoyed it.  He was right, today was going to be a great day.  Simple things began to escalate and were blown out of proportion.  I believe my husband made reference to me not apologizing for something, and vehemently helped us both to remember how in the past, I apologized very little.  Instead of immediately reminding my husband that was indeed in the past I told him two could play this game if he wanted to go down memory lane.  I don't know what stopped me, well I do...God in all His mighty pulled my words from my mouth and refused to let them out.  Praise Him!  For had they exited, a battle would have been fought much larger than the loud disagreement occuring in our living room.
I went outside and prayed.  I told God I wanted to stay mad, though I knew He didn't want me to stay angry.  At the end of my prayer I felt a big rejuvenated and returned to my husband.  He did not pray.  Later, he expressed how he wished he had. 
Overall, the major escalation stemmed from me saying something extremely hurtful to my husband I never meant.  I said it as I was walking out the door.  So while I was going outside to seek God's guidance, I still got my last jab in beforehand.  Not a practice I recommend.
My husband has a tendency to say, "I'm sorry" a thousand times too many.  When these apologies are not accompanied by actions, the words are meaningless to me.  When I do not apologize to my husband right away, he gets angry and full of resentment.  He wants immediate reparations.  He wants words regardless of whether I am ready or not.  He feels he can't move forward until he hears an apology.  I on the other hand, know I am sorry, and want to talk more and calm down.  If I apologized and didn't mean it in my heart, it's meaningless to me.  We clash here greatly.  We're not sure how we're going to work together in those instances, we just know it must be done. 
I told my husband later in conversation how much I need to feel important to him.  He feels his presence alone tells me I'm important.  I'm not trying to paint him as arrogant, I believe he has a tainted view of how marriages should be.  Neither of us had great role models for Christian marriages growing up.  God provides us with a great marriage manual, his Word!  We have no crutch to stand on when the word of God is ready and waiting for us at any moment.  Praise the Lord for providing. 
A great step forward was made yesterday with my husband.  I was leaving to spend some time with a member of his family.  I wanted to pray for her and share God's word with her.  Not something I have ever done outside of our home.  A big step in my walk with Christ.  I was both excited and nervous.  Though I knew it had to be done.  I didn't want to be deceived by Satan thinking it was okay to not proclaim God's power because I was embarrassed or scared of rejection.  I asked my husband to pray for me while I was gone.  "I'd be glad to!"  He responded.  Walking out the door, he looked up and asked, "Do you want to pray before you leave?"  "Absolutely!"  He said a quick and poingant prayer asking God to guide my heart and words and make my visit meaningful.  I was so impressed with my husband, and so proud of him!  He is growing in his faith!  No longer is he the tiny infant just beginning his walk with Christ, he is moving forward.  We are moving forward together.

One good thing my husband did Friday:  Took the boys trick or treating
Saturday:  Thanked me for joining them during more trick or treating
Sunday:  Took
Monday:  Took the boys outside to play
Tuesday:  Prayed for me.